Hi beautiful angel, Well its a week to Christmas & i haven't got any Christmas spirit at all. Things aren't good & its all because of Stephen's girlfriend, she keeps causing arguments between me & ste, saying one thing to me then saying another thing to ste and saying I'm the one in the wrong. They were supposed to be having xmas day with me & Garry, which was arranged months ago, she said she wasn't going to her parents cos she hadn't been invited/asked and no plans, plus wouldn't go with it been our first Christmas without Garry's mum, now she's told her parents their going to theirs and just told me, yet I'm the one in the wrong cos i had a right go with her, stes blaming me, now im been ignored and avioded , I'm made to feel like an outsider in my own home. I'm sick of it all Gran, and i don't know what to do, I've nobody to turn to, i feel totally and utterly alone, im sick of being upset and all the arguments, i just wish i was with you 💔, i really wish you were here , i know you'd be having stern words with Stephen . I miss you so ,so much gran, it hurts 😢. I'll come visit you next weekend and bring you all some flowers, I'm sorry ive taken the lovely vase off, but its all cracked with the cold weather we've had, I'll see if i can get you something else to replace. Please watch over me & give me some strength to keep on going, i really don't know how much more i can take. Love & miss you every single day Gran, until we meet again, rest in eternal paradise. Love always & forever ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ xxxxxx