Hi beautiful angel, Sorry its been a while since i last wrote to you. Well what a roller coaster of a year we've had. Sadly we lost Brenda ( Garry's mum) on 13th feb 😢, and to say things have been difficult for us all is an understatement, Garry is slowly getting there & so is his sister Paula, but Ken, Garry's dad isn't coping very well at all, so we're all worried about him too, which is totally understandable. Me & our Ste went to see mum a couple of times, she's doing better than she was, and is slowly starting to get her house sorted out. We've not been to see her for a while though with Ste doing a lot of overtime, not only that though, its because his girlfriend Abbie doesn't want him going to see mum, she's an absolute control freak with him and he does whatever she says, me & Ste hardly speak now, and its breaking my heart not having that bond that we used to have. I've tried talking to him , to try get him to see her for what she's really like, but he's got his rose tinted glasses on when it comes to her !! He doesn't even go see his friends anymore, and god forbid if i ask him to take me anywhere without him asking her first !! I know if you were still here you'd be having stern words with him !!. Suzanne's youngest daughter lost her baby boy on 5th nov, she went into early labour but sadly he only lived a couple of hours, I'm going to the funeral next week, so I'll nip to see you before the funeral. Don't know whats wrong with me just lately, but i just feel like im being pushed to one side by everyone, all i seem to be doing is crying, its not helping with being in pain all the time. I just wish i could get one of your big bear hugs to make me feel better. I'm missing you so,so much Gran, even though i keep telling Garry that hos grief will get a bit easier, its certainly not got any easier losing you !! I don't think I'll ever get over your loss, but i know that you will always be watching over us and sending us little signs to let us know you're still with us. Love & miss you more & more, each & every single day. Keep watching over us, reat in perfect paradise my beautiful angel. Love & miss you always & forever 💜💜🥰🥰 xxxxxxx